New & Good Energy!

Heyyyyyyyy!!!!

It’s a sad shame I know, month six of this year and yo girl is just now returning to her diary! But, I’m back. I truly had to take some time to reflect and find out what it was that I really wanted this diary/blog of mine to represent. And I think I have finally figured me out! So let’s start by catching up!

I am now five months pregnant with my own little ray of pink sunshine! Exciting doesn’t even begin to describe how I feel. This is however the last time that I will feel excitement for the gift of recreation (as far as I’m concerned) lol. I have the perfect two, a boy and a girl, so I get to experience both worlds. Started off a bit nervous and rocky as far as my mental health was concerned, but we are good now and ready to explore what beauty this new life will bring into our worlds.

Bailyr is going to be 5 in August and he will be attending school for the first time, and when I tell you I have to talk to and prep myself daily. I didn’t know how unprepared I was until we had to register him and I couldn’t stop crying. This world is so unpredictable and as a Mommy I just want to protect and shield my baby from everything. I know that’s impossible, but in my mind letting go (him going to school) seems like the end of the world! Y’all just pray for me!

John and I are truly growing in this time and we are truly learning day by day to appreciate one another more and more. He has been off now for around four months and having him home has been a joyous experience. I love having his presence near and not to mention his help with his mini. This is by no means to say that marriage is an everyday smiling session, but it is to say that we are learning everyday new ways to navigate the hard curves and truly enjoy the straights. I truly love this life that God has given us and when choosing John for me he knew exactly what I needed.

Lastly, I am back on my blog and taking control of my happiness and energy again. I am refocused and ready for all the good things God has in store for me. I am finally feeling like myself again and honestly I feel inspired enough to inspire others again. So here’s to a new beginning and continuation of this journey that I call Life!

-Jai-