This week I’ve been having feelings of gratefulness and fulfillment simply because God has been so much more than amazing in my life. One thing that I’ve learned is that I may not praise him and thank him like everyone else or like expected from others (especially in the church). You know because they can sometimes pressure you and make you feel like if you’re not screaming and hollering, dancing and jumping then you’re not as grateful as they are. Well, I have become comfortable in my praise and the way that I show my reverence to God. That was off but, back to my thoughts lol. I have been truly thanking God because this pregnancy is completely different from my last. The pictures that I have on this post are from my pregnancy with Bailyr and some are from my current pregnancy.
Let me just start by saying that pregnancy is a gift and I am glad that I am able to reproduce healthy babies and my body is capable of completing the task. If you’ve been here for a while though, then you know that my testimony was truly a test! With Bailyr I had seizures every month, around the time that my cycle would normally come and on whatever day those seizures would come, more than likely it was never just one. I’ve had up to six seizures in 24 hours and where my body may have taken a lot, my baby was untouched. God always shows you just how much power he holds in different ways. I had those seizures before, during, and after my pregnancy and Bailyr is perfectly fine and healthy as a horse. I wouldn’t wish that on anyone, but what I will say is that, God knew how to get my attention and make me more grateful for his work with that test.
Now here we are, almost five years later and I am seizure free. Now, I do take medicine for them, but I was on meds before. I am two almost three years seizure free and I am five months pregnant. I am going to have a babygirl and she is perfectly healthy as well. I had normal pregnancy issues this time around. Nausea, heartburn, morning sickness, and sore gums, but I am reproducing and my baby is in good health! I am so ready to meet her and see just how different these two little beings will be. Bailyr was calm while inside, he moved but not as much, I wasn’t really sick or anything. But, that’s probably because he was trying to figure out what the heck was going on with all the shaking. Currently, he is busy and full of energy…..all day EVERY DAY! It’s always play time according to him, and he doesn’t think that anyone has an agenda for the day. As far as babygirl is concerned, she is wiggling all day and kicking and seem like working out in there lol. Hopefully that means she will be calm once she arrives.
The point that I was trying to make with this post is that I am so thankful to God for my dream come true!! Also for his outstanding mercy and grace. Simply because I know that my situation could be different and my story could’ve been told in a completely different manner. One thing for sure though, he never ceases to amaze me. So to end, for anyone out there reading this, that may be going through some challenges, have faith and try to get the message he’s trying to send throughout the experience. Also I am a good ear and always here if you need someone to talk to. My story may not be your story, but the testimony always has the same ending, and that is “He’s good”!
My story may not help everyone, but if it helps just one, then it was worth the struggle!