So, in this post I have decided to speak on the unexpected blessings placed in my life. Considering today marks a year since I received the best and biggest gift that GOD could have ever trusted me with, I would like to celebrate my first year with you. Last year on August 16th I was blessed with an angel who I never thought would mean so much to me. In all honesty I never even thought God would trust me with such an awesome and amazing role in someones life. You never how much it means or what the responsibility really entails or calls for in being a mother. A year later and it still feels weird to say that I am a mother (lol). Prior to my son arriving I was so nervous and didn’t think I would be able to do this parenting thing. I was scared beyond belief and I couldn’t understand why God would trust me with that title. I never expressed to anyone how I truly felt, not even my hubby, so trying to deal with all of those thoughts on my own was a fight within itself. Somewhere during my pregnancy I began to feel comfortable due to me talking, praying, and trusting God. Toward the end of my pregnancy I would say around 7 1/2 months I truly started to prepare myself for the task at hand. Of course I was so ready to get him dressed for everything, but I was also ready to feel him, kiss him, and love him………so obsessed I was ready to smell him too! Prior to my sons arrival, I had a few issues with delivery, therefore I had to have a c-section (Thanks to God for the most supportive partner (my hubby)). Due to me having a c-section I was sleep for a majority of the first day of my baby’s birth and I met him a bit late. Though I must say when I first laid eyes on his beautiful face it was true love at first sight. Its kind of like we were truly meant to be because its like he knew who I was and was automatically stuck to me, he latched right on (for my breastfeeding mothers) that’s how spiritually and physically connected we were. The first time I held him letting go was never a thought, I wanted him much more than I wanted anything else in life. Since that day my entire life has changed, and I am not in any way, form, or fashion saying that life is peachy and always great, but he surely gives me a reason to enjoy everyday. I love him so much and it honestly made me love my Partner In Crime (my best friend, and my hubby) a lot more for giving me such an AMAZING gift!
You are much more than my mind could have ever imagined, more than my heart could have previously felt, and the light to any prior darkness. You are perfect in every form and facet of the word and even that is an understatement. August 16th 6:16 pm will never be the same for me, you have changed everyday of my life, but your entry date is a dream come true. I would have never imagined that my life would include such a gift, but I am so much more than grateful and my praise to God will never be the same. To see your smile, your face when I walk in the room, your cry when I leave the room, your little lips for your morning kiss, and your little fingers from the touch of your soft and precious hand every morning is a gift within itself. I love you baby and I will forever stand in your corner and be whatever you need me to be. Happy birthday to my Spud!!!!
Bailyr Liam Martin